Some warm arms

Sometimes you feel like you just need someone to love you; like you just need someone to wrap their arms around you and stay there until you're ready for them to leave. Sometimes it is nice to feel like someone needs someone at the very time that you need someone and they pick you. Most times it feels great for someone to ask how you are and really want to know the answer; for someone to care about you above many of the distracting things going on in life.

This was not intended to be a valentine's day related post. I had forgotten until just now that tomorrow was valentine's day. But I suppose it is appropriate.

I am so happy with where my life is right now and with where it is headed. I am not sure if I would change anything. It is jolting, though, to see so many people be with people that they really, really want to be with. How did that happen to them when I thought it had happened to me and now I am without it? It assures me that most everyone else has something fleeting, also. I am positive that I will have the same thing again. But what of it when it comes? I'm not really sure. Will it be important? Will I feel a lot or a little? Will it even matter? What of all of the probable feelings to develop inside of me? And what of the person that stands opposite me? It is alarming to realize that it may not even matter; ever.

So, then, I guess the only purpose of beginning again is just to begin. Then, once it begins, it begins to end. Should I really perceive it to be this way? Should it be in the back of my mind while I pretend?

Two ladies and a gentlemen sat in my section today. After they had finished eating they asked what my valentine's day plans were for the night. I laughed and said I didn't have any. They were completely shocked and asked why no guy had bothered to ask me to be his valentine when I was such a pretty girl with such a great personality. Well, I guess I just don't know and since I don't know that's what I told him. I just don't know. Maybe I chose that? I'm pretty sure I did. A good question would be... do I want to keep it going? Or do I want to try again?

I suppose no one wants to be all alone when they could be with someone else. Then, again not a lot of people would want to deal with the stress and drama and hurt.

But everyone wants to be close. Right? In your heart, you really just want to be close.

I love you.

Goodnight.