Waking up

I just woke up and I feel like I'm going to feel beautiful inside all day. I don't HAVE to do things today, but I can choose my own productivity. There is so much I can do and I can do what I want. Today is going to be full.

There is so much ahead of me. I have so much learning to do and so many great things to accomplish. I am so ready for it every minute of every day. I just have to remember that I can take my time. It's about the experience not about the final product. I can't worry anymore. I just have to relax and feel everything each instance that it occurs.

I get to see Zach, Vicki, Jim, and possibly Chris today. I miss them all so much. They were like my second family. Well, they are my second family. Always. I love them so! =] It feels so good to know that no matter what they are always here for me when I need them and even sometimes when I don't. They still want me in their lives. They still love me. Because that's what families do. They love each other unconditionally. =]

I get to see my family tonight. I miss my mother and my sister so much. They mean the world to me. I can't even thank them enough for all of the love they have given me. Every time I need a friend they are right by my side. They are the best friends anyone could ask for.

Speaking of best friends, I hope I can see Zach Flores and Chris Yu this weekend. I probably won't see Erika. The three of them are so great. No matter what I am going through they will always listen. No matter how many times I talk about it or how annoying I am, they will always be looking out for me and making sure I'm okay. They are there to the very last second that I feel I need them.

I wish I could see CJ. I miss him a whole bunch. It's so strange to think that he is actually my step brother. I feel so much like he is my blood brother. We are so much closer than so many brother's and sister's I know. He is one of my best friends. I can talk to him about anything and I can joke with him about anything. He always makes me laugh and we understand each other so well.

I love these amazing people in my life. They mean the world to me. Each and everyone of them makes me life worth living. Even if I lost all of them I would be happy to go on knowing that I could remember what they all have been to me and how much they have loved me. =]

Praise Allah!!! =P