Mind

My mind is stuck on you. It is very monotonous. It's not very entertaining, yet your presence is imprinted there for some reason. I think and maybe hope a little that when I am away that will fade. But part of me just hopes you'll admit that the same thing is happening to you. That way, even though I'm confused and unfocused, I won't be alone in that.

You know what. I think that night was my favorite night of the summer so far.

I'm going to shut up and relax. Because that's what my friend told me to do. So, I'm going to put thoughts about you to rest for now. Okay? Goodnight.

New

You're new. You're distracting. You make it hard to focus. You make me restless. You are just what I want. And you're right. I don't have to think about how just yet. All I know is I want you. I know it. And you truly. Not just some fantasy version I made up. You make me smile. You make me laugh. You make me feel again. And I don't feel attached. I still feel free, just scatterbrained. =]

Wednesday night:
We kissed.
You held me.
You told me I was beautiful.

You like me. That feels really good. I like you, too. =]

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California next week. I'm so stressing out about it. But it's still good stress I think. I am trying to hurry and learn this music as best as I can before I go. I'm so excited. I know if I just get this done now the workshop is going to be excellent. Yikes... I'm a big girl now. =D



I really love life... I love God.