You are doing so many things that are oh so right. I'm not surprised, but I am ecstatic that you are so forward about
the way you just grab my hand
the way you know exactly what makes an adventure
the way you know exactly how to make me smile and laugh
the way you know exactly when to wrap me up and when to squeeze tight
the way you know when to kiss me tenderly
the way you know how many times and exactly where to lay your lips
the way you're not afraid of any place on my body... to caress... to kiss
... every little kiss you place from head to toe, all over with a smile, as gently as a feather
Yet, you still go only as far as a gentleman would. And we still only fall asleep wrapped in each others arms, face to face, with a story of you.
That is perfect. It's just what I have been looking for.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
A memory to not forget
Yesterday was Monday and the beginning of the week. Yesterday was the first date between Jacob and me. The facts that it was Monday, the 26th of July, and that we were having our first date are completely irrelevant. What are important notes are listed below:
I felt really pretty.
I let myself shine and stay true.
I was really comfortable.
We went out for sushi. He picked it out a couple of weeks ago. That made me smile when he told me. I never felt awkward and he was super adorable. What is important to mention is, during the date I wasn't thinking that it was a date at all. My mind was completely clear of worries and anticipation. I was just in the moment the whole time. I was completely free. And he made me laugh. And I made him smile. We connected. And it was a success. =] Ding ding!
I had to work after. So, I did. After work, I was feeling spontaneous since Erika had come to visit me and Jacob and I are going well. I announced a random break into the beach, which lead Jake to suggest getting drunk and going streaking. Whatever. I was up for whatever felt fun and out of the blue.
We didn't end up streaking. Apples, Erika, Jake, and I all drove to Lake Michigan. It was absolutely beautiful. The water was so still, excluding the little bit of movement as the waves met the beach. The sky was completely clear and the moon was bright and round. We all walked down the beach until we found a log and I got inspired to get in the water (It was extremely warm!) I stripped down to underwear and walked out. The water stayed shallow for feet out. So, I kept walking and walking until I was with myself. Then, Jacob got in and I told him to come with me. He did. Erika and Apples stayed behind.
Jacob met me out in the water far, far away from the beach until we couldn't see Erika and Apples and they couldn't see us. Soon as he got to me he picked me up and held me. We looked at the stars and we looked at the moon's reflection on the water. And to make it perfect we got silly, played, and made each other laugh. And he just kept squeezing me tight until we went back to the beach.
That's a memory to not forget. Good day. Good night. Good life. I'm lucky.
*When I close my eyes, all I can see is the reflection of the moonlight on the quiet lake water*
I felt really pretty.
I let myself shine and stay true.
I was really comfortable.
We went out for sushi. He picked it out a couple of weeks ago. That made me smile when he told me. I never felt awkward and he was super adorable. What is important to mention is, during the date I wasn't thinking that it was a date at all. My mind was completely clear of worries and anticipation. I was just in the moment the whole time. I was completely free. And he made me laugh. And I made him smile. We connected. And it was a success. =] Ding ding!
I had to work after. So, I did. After work, I was feeling spontaneous since Erika had come to visit me and Jacob and I are going well. I announced a random break into the beach, which lead Jake to suggest getting drunk and going streaking. Whatever. I was up for whatever felt fun and out of the blue.
We didn't end up streaking. Apples, Erika, Jake, and I all drove to Lake Michigan. It was absolutely beautiful. The water was so still, excluding the little bit of movement as the waves met the beach. The sky was completely clear and the moon was bright and round. We all walked down the beach until we found a log and I got inspired to get in the water (It was extremely warm!) I stripped down to underwear and walked out. The water stayed shallow for feet out. So, I kept walking and walking until I was with myself. Then, Jacob got in and I told him to come with me. He did. Erika and Apples stayed behind.
Jacob met me out in the water far, far away from the beach until we couldn't see Erika and Apples and they couldn't see us. Soon as he got to me he picked me up and held me. We looked at the stars and we looked at the moon's reflection on the water. And to make it perfect we got silly, played, and made each other laugh. And he just kept squeezing me tight until we went back to the beach.
That's a memory to not forget. Good day. Good night. Good life. I'm lucky.
*When I close my eyes, all I can see is the reflection of the moonlight on the quiet lake water*
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Rain
It's dark outside and it's raining.
It smells so sweet and fresh.
It's the perfect day to stay inside, sit on my bed, and rest.
It's raining and it's dripping and I feel content.
I have an aching in my belly.
I'm hungry, but I'm set.
And I'm breathing.
I'm breathing like I just woke up, but I'm breathing all the same.
I don't care if I know the world.
I don't care if I know my name because I'm seeing.
I'm smelling and I hear.
None of it is tainted.
Not much gives me lesser fear, along with the sunset and the stars; the moon and the clouds. With this I'm free and I'm found...
until the rain stops.
***
Freestyles are freeing. =P
I'm a new person. I'm even newer than that poem above. Every time I create, I'm new. Every time I feel or think, I'm new. And I want to be changed. I want to be different. I don't want to be the same for more than 30 seconds even. For me, things need to stay lively. Nothing can be monotonous. So, everyday I alter myself and I alter my life. I look for things that I didn't notice before. I put things in front of me that weren't before. That satisfies me. I'm glad to know that.
It smells so sweet and fresh.
It's the perfect day to stay inside, sit on my bed, and rest.
It's raining and it's dripping and I feel content.
I have an aching in my belly.
I'm hungry, but I'm set.
And I'm breathing.
I'm breathing like I just woke up, but I'm breathing all the same.
I don't care if I know the world.
I don't care if I know my name because I'm seeing.
I'm smelling and I hear.
None of it is tainted.
Not much gives me lesser fear, along with the sunset and the stars; the moon and the clouds. With this I'm free and I'm found...
until the rain stops.
***
Freestyles are freeing. =P
I'm a new person. I'm even newer than that poem above. Every time I create, I'm new. Every time I feel or think, I'm new. And I want to be changed. I want to be different. I don't want to be the same for more than 30 seconds even. For me, things need to stay lively. Nothing can be monotonous. So, everyday I alter myself and I alter my life. I look for things that I didn't notice before. I put things in front of me that weren't before. That satisfies me. I'm glad to know that.
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