The Language

There is a language that we all know. It is a language that has not yet been dictated and it is not one that we use frequently. When we remember to pay attention to it, we also remember that we are fluent in it. It is not a language of words. It is not a language that is labeled. But it can be a medium. You feel it when you focus. You feel it when you recognize. You feel it when you connect. You feel it when you observe. You feel it when you touch. You feel it when you are aware. You feel it when you feel.

It cannot be described, the language itself. But when it is used to communicate, it is most clear. It is superior among languages. It is the mother of all. It is the only language that matters.

And no one even knows what it is. Some don't even realize its power. Some don't even realize it's there. When we do, truth will be more prevalent. The world will become smaller and the universe bigger. We will all grow. We will all advance. We will all be brave. We will all be relevant.

Something new

I like someone. And it does not matter if it ever goes anywhere. I think the best part about it is that it's new. There is no promise. There is no attachment. There is freedom. There is room to choose.

I feel like I'm getting another chance to see perfect things in a different way. They're just a part of life. They come. That means they were not there before. So, then they go. And that is where they belong. That is because they do not belong to you. They don't belong to themselves. They belong to life. And life shares them with you, but you do not get to keep them. They can only be a part of you because you belong to life, too. You are a piece of it.

You are just a smaller piece of a bigger whole. That is where you belong. That is where it all belongs. And you can love it that way. You can love it in pieces. Then, when they are gone, you can love them as a whole. You can love life alone. Then, you will love it all.

I am in love. And then it will go to continue to be life's love. Just like me.

A few thoughts that have been in my head the past few months

I have fallen so far away from myself. At first I was getting that back because I had to. That was the only way I could okay. When I started to move on from Zach, though, I started to lose myself again. I'm settling for things that I should never have to settle for and I'm doing things that I have never been okay doing.

Also, I never thought I would come to this, but I am helpless when it comes to dating and romance. The sad thing is I am truly a romantic. A helpless romantic. It's so cliche... I just don't get it. I am almost incapable. It is pathetic.

I have not been to church or had a serious prayer in almost or over a year. It's quite a major fail and I feel like that is part of my biggest problems.

All I care about singing and that's all I want to care about.

All I care about is singing and I am not sure if that's all I want to care about.

So, you see... there is quite the predicament...

And I just told a crush that I had a crush on him so I can't really think of stuff right now. I'm going to bed.

what i realized

I loved you and now I can't love anyone else.

So, I drown myself in music.

And that's the only thing I love.

So, I guess that's the end of it.

I'll only have music. The rest of my life.